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Tuesday, January 1
happy new year
-emos-
im sad. my internet fren. saw my pic and said i looked normal.
-emos-
-sits down-
-head goes down-
-dark aura hang over head-
-leaf blow past-
someone: COME PLAY :D
-looks up-
....
-head down hair spills over my face-
-dark aura gets denser-
....
-emos-
-cloud of dust part in a circle from my feet-
-everything goes silent-
-air stills and stops-
-thunderclouds gather overhead at super natural speed-
-atmostphere gets tense, dark, intense-
...
-children feels uneasy, drops ball,
thudthudthud... children cries and run home-
....
-emos-
-more leafs fall-
I know I'm not exactly what you call a stud, I know I'm not desirable, I know..Give me time to accept that, I need time.I knew that since i was young..But I've been pushing it away, in denial..It's about time I faced it...I know I'm no one..I can't help feeling I'm useless..I have a passion, but it doesn't mean I'm good at it..I want to try things out, but I'm scared to try it alone..I keep trying and trying, but nothing seems to be going my way,I do so much, just to achieve something I could be proud of..People say ' If there's a hope, there's a way'But how do I believe in that, when nothing is hope to me now?I want to get out of this.In my own dream.My safe haven.My serenity, My peace.I want to exist.
11:13 AM;
FUCKING HELL, I DONT NEED YOU. _l_